GOING….GOING…..GONE

 

I was such a calm and collected soul looking back on my days;

Yet now I have to keep my sunglasses on due to the ultra-violet rays;

 

Why does the defamation, gossip and constant lies get me so worked up?

Like a bitter and distasteful drink taken from an open and strange cup;

 

It not only hurts yet disappoints when it comes from folk, you’ve been good to;

And when you’ve been vulnerable to the point of complete exposure, cause they were part of your crew;

 

How can someone as educated, sit in a glass house and throw stones?

Don’t you know that, your soul will become pail as you turn into bones?

 

That’s why you won’t find me on social media or having a smart phone;

Because those closest to you hate your progress and cursing you are prone;

 

I boil when told that they wish bad things would happen to me and they did fail;

Now that I am still standing despite their curses they remain ashamed having hidden their tail;

 

All I did was offer myself in complete honesty holistically;

Yet with your cohorts you discuss and plan my downfall tragically;

 

GOING….GOING…..GONE

 

I can’t help but get so livid when I think about how you aim at killing my soul with anger;

Now unto my La Familia and myself you have become a complete stranger;

 

I never ever want to see you in my eyes ever again and be gone from my life;

Because all along you’ve been smiling with me, whilst in the dark you held out for me that knife;

 

Why are you so jealous of my progress forward, yet you eat from my plate?

Why are you so consumed with my life to the point of utter hate?

 

I used to get angry due to what was said;

Now I am wiser and understand that you are sad;

 

Your life was empty before I entered;

Whilst all I did was you I centred;

 

You attempt to cling unto my by all means even by deceit;

You have sleepless nights because you tasted utter defeat;

 

My eyes have now been opened to see you for who you are;

Therefore from you and your whoring ways I will stay very far;

 

GOING….GOING…..GONE

 

In my anger you were the trigger;

I never assaulted violently cause I am bigger;

 

I am finding new ways of dealing with this disturbing feeling;

Because I become so angry due to the insults that I reach the ceiling;

 

I am a peace loving and kind person;

Yet you want to let me rot in prison;

 

A prisoner of your devilish and disguised embrace;

Yet your evil to the start of it all I can trace;

 

Why do you want from me, what you unto me can’t give?

Yet my happiness and joy you want to tear into pieces like a thief;

 

I am really tired of the bullshit given through all these years;

To love and be loved has been my passion, yet now I am brought to tears;

 

You’ve almost spoiled it for the next in my chapter;

Even though what you’ve done hurts I embrace the lessons through laughter;

 

GOING….GOING…..GONE

 

I almost returned your deeds with the same evil;

However I realised that I am not satan’s representative, cause you’re the devil;

 

Even though you are the lying fraud;

Almost disaster to your family you brought;

 

I will let God take upon your soul the vengeance;

Even though it’s hard I have to let go of my appetite for revenge;

 

I set you free from my heart and mind so that I can breathe;

Finally from my space and life you and your cohorts can leave;

 

Your best friend, by your own admission is a certified whore;

She influences you with fornication to the core;

 

Sadly you’ve been hiding the fact that you are gay;

That’s why for you and your children all I can do is pray;

 

Then you bring into my space those filthy spirits to influence and thus my soul you tie;

No wonder you are brought to fake emotions as you act with that crocodile cry;

 

GOING….GOING…..GONE

 

I will recall my embarrassing and hurtful letter and affidavit;

Because seeing you lose everything and end up in prison, I will forever hurt;

 

Note that I can still recall my withdrawal;

You will not have access to me as it’s marked in denial;

 

I am not you or your cohorts’ weakling at all;

Keep up with your mind games, and I will show you who will be standing tall;

 

You should thank not only God yet equally my mother;

Because had she not spoken to me, I wouldn’t even bother;

 

I really wanted you to be punished;

Form your social and career standing forever banished;

 

For your heart I really felt deeply sorry;

Even though you wanted me to not witness God’s glory;

 

To break me down you brought me drugs;

Even threatened to kill me in my sleep with your thugs;

 

GOING….GOING…..GONE

 

To the Law and my La Familia you keep spreading malicious lies;

You brought my mother and sister to hurtful and soulful cries;

 

That really had me pissed off to the extreme;

Seeing the people I love hurt had me to tears in my dream;

 

What you will do can no longer get me to move;

It’s for me to get to know myself and unto my soul give love;

 

I break off all the soul ties and take back what I gave;

All my love for you and compassion I have put in that grave;

 

I don’t know why despite the insults and hurt I stayed;

Hoping that you would change your ways I craved;

 

To you I should have never gotten married;

Now I see that all these years your burdens I carried;

 

Look after your daughter and guide her well in her path;

Teach her that there are wolves and they lurk in the dark;

 

GOING….GOING…..GONE

 

I can never talk to our princess again as you have had her mind polluted;

What I offered her for the past ten years you have diluted;

 

Your hate for me eats you up daily;

Accept that our destinies were never tied to each other frankly;

 

I gave up my life so that you can have it all;

Yet all along you want to see me fall;

 

As I left the gates I knew I couldn’t hold on to the hate;

I know that bitterness and strife is not my fate;

 

When I look at your friendship circle all I see are whoremongers filled by lust;

Soon their lives and all they stand for will be turned to dust;

 

GOING….GOING…..GONE

 

Nothing good has come from them to you, ‘cause everybody enters to drain your resources;

Send because the darkness and everything evil is their base for all their sauces;

 

You misused my goodness and virtue for your selfish gain;

I am letting you go because I can’t go through anymore with this pain;

 

Goodbye my former it was a life lesson journey

It must have been God that brought it to an end so early;

 

I am glad that I was exposed to your masquerading manipulation;

So that I was empowered to stop it early enough from multiplication;

 

GOING….GOING…..GONE